Turns out I do have a dream

:) Hi.
Am currently listening to Joe Brooks, so I might go all soft and touchy-touchy -o-
Dah lama tak update menatang nih. MENATANG? Since when pulak I started to use that kind of language haiyaaaa Juju maaa. Ampunkan saya *tunduk banyak kali
Oh, I must not forget, MANNERS FIRST!
Assalamualaikum wbt :) and good evening.
For the nth time, I don't care if no one reads this. I myself know better, I'm not that oh-so-social type. I hardly mingle around. So what? Dafuqq with it. HAHA *gelak besar gila
Tonight, I ought to be studying for my mid semester exam, but I guess too much have been running through my mind I just left them...for "awhile". Tak lawaknya -_-' Okay, whatever.

Its Ramadhan now :) ,which we fast through out the month. Okay, dah tak tau nak cakap apa. Wait, I'm writing this for a reason. Sebab apa tadi ek? Okay *pelupa betul aku ni

Oh yes,my throw-it-aside-for-awhile dream. For all this years, I've been watching my brother and my sister led their live. My sister is an M.O and my bro is still in his practical years, a doctor-to-be. As for me,being the last means I'm the last person in the family who ought to take her degree in the same field. So,for all those years back, my pathway has been made into account of something that I knew now wasn't quite the best for me. Apa kau babble ni? 
Carrying on: I now realize med wasn't the best opt for me to take. I'm that kind of person who look wayyyyy into the future. I thought of what my life would be. I daydreamed that would one bright sunny day like today would ever my young generations feel then..if I were to be a doctor. My mum's a housewife. As a daughter, I felt she made a wonderful job raising her three children. All grown up and healthy. Would I ever achieve what my mum had achieved if I were to be doctor? Truthfully, my passion is more to arts. Let it be paintings,musics and such. It combines with my soul more than med does. Tapi tak selalu apa yang kita nak tu kita akan dapat kan? I know the feeling. So, I'm only taking this road for my parents. I hope they can live a great life in the years to come. And for architecture,don't worry baby, after I've done with everything, kalau diizinkan Tuhan, aku sambung la. Right now, I just need to look forward and to aim for the goal.

I've asked a few of my friends. I remembered explicitly, "It's too late to turn back now" . That hurts. All I asked for was an advice or maybe just a little bit of lifting up the spirit. But, it has to go with crushing the dream. It always have to go that way.
But, if I ever managed to talk my parents into letting me take architecture instead after this foundation, the question is this " Can you accept me then? Because by then, I wouldn't have the license to save you" . This is my throw-it-aside-for-awhile dream. What's yours?


#if we hold tight,shadows will be lost in the light
P/S : blog aku ni makin pelik lah.haih