Holiday Break Plan #1

Assalamualaikum wbt

WARNING! This is gonna be a looooong one!

Holla people! Yes, I'm being giddy because I'm in that holiday mood. Yayerzzzzz. Nothing really goes on with my life when I'm at home. It's always the usual ; get up, cook breakfast , watch TV, online, watch more TV , lunch , online again , TV again, andddd dinner. Pretty much the whole time I just waste the whole seconds. It's an achievement. Really. Before this I might not even get up from sleep. But in the weekends the whole family will go back to kampung . Mostly because mum and dad decided to start a business. They made this big pond in the kebun, which is my grandma's but now decended to mum, untuk ternak udang. They visioned it when there will be time we'll all gonna have this barbecue session with the whole family by the pond and of course they are gonna sell the prawns as well.

The first time I visited the site, it was full of leeches and the rest of its animal kingdom family. Those blood-sucking monsters will just suddenly appear, oh let's just say on your leg, and bite you with its tiny weeny little teeth and just suck you dry. If you don't seem to notice these creatures on you, you might feel an itchiness. Blerghh

So, since mum and dad have a way to occupy themselves, not that they're occupied enough, I have a few of my own. Yes! ME! I took mum's advice to take IELTS exam, probably in June. I can study on my own. It's basically like MUET but a little bit more complex. Nonetheless, I think I can manage them and study on my own. I would go to the classes, but I would bore myself for the first hour. Self-study helps me to keep track of my own capability and further them in a way that I would think appropriate to myself.

Plus, I have this thing with being a facilitator for the juniors. InsyaAllah, pray to the Almighty, that I get them. Soon, probably in May, for a week or so, I can make myself busy. Do good deeds for in the future it might helps us. May it be consciously or subconsciously. Or so they say.

Then, my mum FINALLY give in about the motor license thing. She agreed and hell yeahhhh Imma get dream bike. Hihi . So this means that I'll be taking my motor license but we didn't set out when or where.

Oh and since my mum and dad are with that whole ternak udang thing, they decided that I should take a shooting license. HAH! License to shoot. This is because the site is ramming with monkeys. Getting a gun by law, is hard. One should and must have at least a land property to have such machinery. Tak tau la kalau betul ke tak mereka nak hantar but the idea of it is supercool !

Of course, sometime in May, Sab,Marsya and I will head to Malacca. First because Sab and I need to get our SPM certificates. Then we'll be seeing our dear friend Nurin yipppeeee!

By right, all of these plans should occupy myself so that I won't be wasting my time. But of course, I have to start cleaning my room first -____-

DUH!

Camaraderie 2.0

Assalamualaikum !
HYE !
Hello!
How are you?
Me?
I'm so darn fine 'cause Pasum has ended yawwww. TEEHEE .That moment when everyone got out from the exam hall was AWESOME !
Tapi tapi tapi tapi tapi tapi tapi tapi tapi tapi tapi I'm never gonna see all these people again :( I'm sad yes,yes I am



I'm gonna miss Mama Qila , I'm gonna miss kaklong Miera. Papa Din dgn Abg Ngah taknak la miss :D
This may sound ridiculous, but I'm gonna miss how I can be such a spoil brat  when I was with them. Yeah, I may be the smallest one, but I have a biiiiiiiiig heart that has placed all these people in it permanently.
Guys, I'm so gonna miss you ,like a lot. I hope we ever do get the chance to meet again.
May we become what we wanted and the best ummah there is to be.

From the left: Kaklong Miera, Mama Qila, Me and Iesha :)

Thank you for making my experience in Pasum a lot more memorable than I expected

Camaraderie 1.0

Assalamualaikum w.b.t :)

Hey folks ! I'm happy to announce I got engaged !! Ok tipu je. Haha. I'm happy to announce that Pasum is coming to meet its ending. Yayerzzz. Sadly, yes there's always sadness, I'm gonna miss all the memories created. Wo hen shangxin but I'm kinda happy I guess.

I know I'm so gonna miss this retards :

Yes, I do am gonna miss them a lot .
I'm gonna miss waking up and see Sabrini Sepet on the other bed still sound asleep and her logics and instant facts
I'm gonna miss the high-pitched voice Nurin Si Ponti and how she always laugh heartily to every single thing
I'm gonna miss Marsya Mata Buntang and how she blabbers everything and make you feel happy in a cloudy day

Girls, I do hope that our friendship lasts. There are just too many memories we had created together. From even the tiniest bit we did together till to the time where the second hand on the watch struck indicating that it's time to say goodbye.
There's just too much to say in too little time and I wish I could expressed how thankful I am to get to know all of you :)

Good luck girls ! May in the future we become the pride of our family, nation and even to ourselves.
I love you lots <3

There'll absolutely gonna be Camaraderie 2.0  =p

You're One in a Million?

There ain't nothing better than this -ne yo
Hey babe, if you're reading this, silalah jangan perli ye. I'm bored and feels like expressing myself for the ump-teenth time.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLO

You know what babe, of course you don't know -_- I didn't say anything yet haha. Anyway,you might not know this but I've always been counting the days till we part :( You know,as in you go to your preferred country as for studying purpose while I'll only be able to wave goodbye from down below :( I know it's only temporary but still, it's so hard oh. Imagine you going away, with much less of knowing how I feel for you. The thought of you, forgetting about me, erasing our memories, burns me :l It does. That thought came crushing my mind like all the time and it sucks.
I really hope when the time comes,when the time we'll part comes, you'd be able to promise me that you won't forget about me and that as soon as you get back you'll come and swipe me off my feet and away from this hole I've been trying to escape :) I'll wait for that time to come. It may seem like lambat lagi but hey,nak buat mcm mana dah benda nak dtg dlm kepala otak ni -__-



SHOOO .GO FART YOURSELF . THANK YOU

Going Strong :)

Juji is still going strong :)

It's like morning here and I can't sleep. I'm feeling kinda giddy-like. Happy, I'm a happy kid :)
Tapi tadi aku just tengok tengok blog orang and wow I realised how noob I am in this kind of things. Bapak lemau LAME gila blog aku. Partly because aku agak malas nak decorate and all that stuffs. Tp sebenarnya mostly because I don't have that required creative-gene. When it comes to art, like corak corak ke atau nak buat kad ke apa, OK PASS KAT ORANG LAIN .

Hal ini mungkin kerana nak create a pattern or such,automatically I'm like 

Dahell taknak keluar apa apa idea!
*literally this is how I will look like

Oh right, I'm in the middle of mid-sem exam. Sebab mata bersengkang malam ni ; esok cuti broooo. Having this kind of lazy attitude because I'm just lazy mehh. Esok Maulidur Rasul, so lets not just have tomorrow dgn benda yang tak berpekdah ye. Selawat kan lagi bagus :) and study jugak la,of course.

Maybe this would seem out of the blue,random,or maybe I'm just out of topic of what to write,but my roommate just said kat my friend, Marsya, that if she were to get married, pindah la kat KL sebab kalau bergaduh senang nak carik. Random,Sabrini is so random :D
And how small this world is, seeing that this world actually revolves around us. Duduk makatab,met new friends and masuk U, met more new friends and tengok tengok kawan kawan kita kenal kawan kawan maktab kita. Macam waaah kecik je dunia ni. Kecik sangat mungkin kalau jalan kaki pergi UK boleh sampai. Sampainya tak tahu bila la hihi.

Its The End Of 2012

Assalamualaikum peeps :)
 It's 26th of Dec. Just a few more days and 2012 would end. I'll be 19 soon. Should be more mature la kan? Nahh, don't think so lahh. Imma live my life while I'm still considered as belasan. Hihihi.So what's my new year resolution then? I don't think I have one. Except that trying to be a better muslimah. Sheesh every year ckp benda yang sama. It's okay kan? Trying is better than doing nothing kan? *pujuk hati

Oh I got my Sem results and Imma tell you it ain't good man. But alhamdulillah,at least I passed above 3.5. I expected more but I guess that's how far I can reach. Mum said to try harder. She said she knows Im capable of getting a lot more. InsyaAllah mummy :)
 I'll try extra-super-duper-vaganza hard this time.

Lately, lots of dramas have been going on. Like lotsa them. Sampai aku rasa boleh buat drama cerita melayu. InsyaAllah boleh lah menang award anugerah skrin ke :3 hoho.
Drama #1 : kena condemn dgn lecturer. Not me lah but a friend of mine. But it involves our band as well,so I guess it involves me? Hmm
Drama #2 : my friend is having confusion. Cinta tiga segi dia la kot. Haha, orang famous kan. Tu la kau, aku da cakap wat lek taknak dengar. Kan dah.
Drama #3 : Lately, I feel like left out gila. Dear friend, somehow I felt like you're just hanging onto me just because you don't have a choice? Because whenever you're with your friends, you just left me behind. Dude, this ain't elementary school no more. No need to shunt me down man. Talk to me straight to the face lah.
Drama #4 :  Involves a lecturer. But this time Im pretty sure it doesnt involve me but surrounds me with it.

Haulaaa. Now this is life. No matter what, we still have to lift our spirit, chin up, face forward and walk to the right path. Mum always said, there is no turning back and don't look back. Even if there's regret, kena lah terima the decision that we've made. It's our own choice so bear je lah kan. And even if it hurts you like you've been tear up too many times and been thrown shit like so many times, insyaAllah, HE's there with you all the time. All that we need to do is remember Him :)

"Bila harus menangis, aku kan menangis" -D'Masiv
12.07 a.m
Later bros

Midnight post

Okay this is so not a midnight post. Its freaking 2.46 in the morning and I couldn't sleep. Maybe because of all these things I've been thinking about. Shall I say good morning then? *Ok ni tak berkaitan
So I've been going through my phone, and I found this. Okay la,not actually found,it's just there kan cuma I was going through and this brought back tears ;

  "Hmm. Suka hati u lah nak cakap apa. Apa remove remove yg u cakap ni ok la fine if you said so then be it la........................................"

And so forth. I need not to tell more. Thinking back, I really shouldn't act like that. I was freaking acting like a freaking retard. A retard kid to be precise. I should be more of a grow up person if I wanted to be treated like one. I feel like letting out the truth tonight. Shall I be in a great trouble? I might not care in the moment. So just let me be. I was being pushed to answer something I can't predict ; the future. Whoever could? I'm completely confused than ever. I don't even know myself well. Let alone to make a decision wise enough. And being pushed like that, I was completely uncontrolled. But truthfully, I was hurt. What I said may hurt you, but it hurt me more than you know. You may be stunned to hear what a girl like me could say but you didn't know that I myself was even shocker than anybody else. That was so not me. So here I am, sitting in front of the screen, hoping that somehow the wind, the stars or anything else would help on letting you know, I really really am sorry for what I said. I should have ended us in a proper way but I didn't. And I want you to know there was never a pretend. I was being true to myself and to you. I'm just to messed up to say anything. I'm not hoping for you to magically somehow open this page and the truth reveals and somehow things go well. No, I don't expect that at all. I expect you to move forward because I know you are better off without me. Should we encounter in the future, I do hope you don't hate me but I know that wouldn't be easy. Surely you already have that deep hatred inside of you. I am so sorry. I could never make you happy anyway. Seeing you happy now glads me. Weird kan?

You want to know something? At times, I do feel the temptations to text you. Whatsapp to be precise. But I just don't know how to start the conversation. I wanted to say I'm sorry,that's all but I can't seem to find the way on how to do it. It sucks but I'll live. You'll live as well. I just know that. All I hope now is that you forgive me for my wrongdoings. I've been mean. Yes, I did. Sorry,

Truly~
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